do you remember when we were just starting out unaware of all the things we'd fail at but so, so sure we were going to do everything we wanted; be the people we just knew we were meant to be; live lives based on snippets of the good ones lived by others?
where did we go?
we were so filled with every kind of bravery, so strong, so straight and convinced that life would wait for us to correct all of the mistakes we made- give us second and third chances to get it right. we were wise without wisdom, experienced without having really lived, all-knowing without knowing anything at all but we were so sure.
where did we go? when did we become us- this us- the us with experiences good and bad and ugly, the us with scars and fears and hesitation that stops us from leaping off of tall buildings believing we could fly or daring to dream while we are awake?
where did we go?
when did we become these people who pay bills, and go to work, and raise children? when did we begin asking where did we go?
my recollections of yesterday vary daily; sometimes they seem so far away and sometimes i am that me from twenty years ago. she inhabits my spirit and i am fierce and free and i remember that girl who was going to live fully and have it all. she smiles wide smiles and is less guarded- i envy her everything- she still has choices and time.
where did we go?
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